Natalie Portman gave the keynote address at Harvard recently and revealed to the would-be graduates that she experienced some dark, depressing times during her time at the university.
Portman is a graduate of the university, and they decided to invite her to be their keynote address at their Class Day this year.
The actress told the audience that Wednesday that being invited back to her school to give the speech was “one of the most exciting things I’ve ever been asked to do.” The “Black Swan” star recounted how she felt an “imposter syndrome” when she arrived at the university, worried as she was that she only got in the Ivy League school because she was “famous.” She arrived at the university in 1999 and “felt there had been some mistake,” and that she “wasn’t smart enough to be in this company.” The actress took no time in trying to prove that she ” “wasn’t just a dumb actress.” She went on to share that she went through some dark times during her stint at Harvard, even revealing that she would spontaneously cry at meetings with her teachers.
“It’s easy now to romanticize my time here, but I had some very difficult times here, too,” she said.
“Some combination of being 19, dealing with my first heartbreak, taking birth control pills that have since been taken off the market for their depressive side effects, and spending too much time missing daylight during winter months led me to some pretty dark moments, particularly during sophomore year.” “There were several occasions I started crying in meetings with professors, overwhelmed with what I was supposed to pull off, when I could barely get myself out of bed in the morning,” she added.
Soon, she said that she found her ultimate purpose during the time she spent in Harvard.
“I admitted to myself I couldn’t wait to go back and make more films .
I had reclaimed my reason,” she shared.